14 DAY TRIAL // Earlier this week, after photos of The-Dream kissing another woman than his wife, singer Christina Milian, emerged, the music producer issued a statement to say that, in fact, his marriage had been over for months and that he and Christina were on the verge of divorce. The claim was refuted by Christina herself, which seemed to have been taken by surprise to learn that her marriage had been in trouble for such a long time, which cast The-Dream in a not too favorable light.
In other words, he was accused of being a cheater and a liar, not man enough to take responsibility for his failed relationship with the mother of his child and the woman he had married only months before. This is probably why The-Dream decided to take to his own website to address the controversy in his own words, in an open letter titled “In My Own Words” no less. In it, not only does he say that he’s only guilty of not knowing when to own up to his mistake and his failing marriage, but he also makes the startling revelation that, at one point, he was so desperate about how things were going he actually considered suicide.
“I would love to tell the truth as to why my relationship wasn't successful, but today that is between me and Christina. It’s easy to say that it’s because of another woman or a new relationship but truthfully, IT’S NOT. I take FULL RESPONSIBILITY for misleading everyone into thinking everything was fine and okay when we knew problems existed for awhile! I wanted to speak up but we decided it wasn't for anyone to know. I would NEVER intentionally hurt a soul and everyone around me knows that! There was so much going on in me and Christina's personal world that I tried to deal with it as delicately as I could and tried to regain my footing. Instead of being direct in order not to cause even more hurt or hurt someone's feelings, I carried the weight in secret!” The-Dream writes.
“If there's anyone to blame and you can't fathom this happening, please blame me and me alone for not being upfront! Even though we were trying to overcome personal things between us, I was just simply scared and embarrassed to let everyone know we WERE FAILING and HAVE NOW FAILED! This is not to justify anything, it’s true emotion! It’s a real thing that involves real people! I've cried about this for months, after interviews, after prayer and I've tried to take my own life at a point because of the failure that was looming,” the producer goes on to say.
The message ends by saying that it wasn’t until his mother told him that he’s not Superman that he finally came to terms with the idea of having failed. On a more positive note, The-Dream says this too will pass and things will be OK again.;
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