14 DAY TRIAL // Kim Kardashian is closing certain chapters of her life to television cameras. After the media phenomenon and public debacle that was her wedding to Kris Humphries, which lasted a mere 72 days, the reality star has learned her lesson – and then some.
Speaking with Allure magazine about whether her second divorce has made her lose all hope in love, Kim chooses to be optimistic about it: sure she still believes in love, but she doesn't want to share it with the rest of the world next time.
While she doesn't say she will simply stop shooting everything she does for her reality show (which would thus cease to exist), Kim stresses she no longer wants to be as public as before.
In her own words, she will be more “guarded” and “private” about her relationship with a new man in the future.
“Will I be more private of a person? Am I more guarded? Absolutely. But, also, I’m a firm believer that my show is who I am,” she says.
“People [think] because you film your life on a reality show, you live everything for the cameras. But we all have limits. My mom has no limits. We need someone, right, to have no limits? That’s my mom,” Kim adds.
Getting married to such fanfare and then suffering intense backlash for deciding, 72 days later, that it wasn't working, has shown Kim that this was not what she wanted in life.
“When I saw Khloe and Lamar get married – and they had their wedding on TV – I thought, Oh, my gosh, that’s so exciting! That’s what I want! If you were to ask me now, that’s not what I want,” she says of her decision to make her wedding into a TV special, one that reportedly made her even richer than before.
Next time she dates a guy and wants to be married to him, Kim says, she will personally make sure there are no cameras around when they exchange vows.
“[It] definitely made me want to be more private with my relationship, whenever I choose to get into one again. I’m not ready, but when that time comes, I’ll be more cautious about who I let my world open up to,” she says.
When they marry, it will be in a very intimate and private ceremony on a deserted island, with – shock! – no TV cameras around.