Nadya Suleman got tagged with the OctoMom nickname much against her will after giving birth to octuplets in January this year. She was, for a brief while, some sort of a national hero – but all that changed when it was found that she had yet another six minor children at home, no job, and was living on government help. In a new interview with the Daily Mail, Suleman says life did not turn out like she had expected.

For starters, she now realizes she might have made somewhat of a mistake when she made the decision to have so many babies. She’s not really calling it a mistake, though, like she did during an interview with a US media outlet and for which she got a lot of flack, but she does say that people need to get over themselves and stop judging her. What’s done is done, she says, so she just has to see how she deals with it – and she suggests everybody else does the same, especially her critics.

She didn’t decide to have so many babies because she wanted to cash in on them, though, she reveals. “I kept going back. When I held my babies in my arms, I felt a love and a bond I had never known before. Each time, I felt happy and then a few months later I knew I wanted more.” she says. Yet, “Looking back, I admit I made immature decisions. I wanted children to fill a hole in me. Perhaps it was selfish. Some people get addicted to drugs. I got addicted to having babies.” she adds.

One thing that she did not expect, however, was to become America’s most hated woman in just a matter of days. In her mind, she thought she’d come home with her octuplets and everyone would love her for what she had done – give birth to eight children. Instead, she was showered with criticism, harsh words and even death threats. She’s moved on from there, she claims, but the world needs to do the same as well and just accept that the babies have come and there’s no changing that.

“When I came home, I thought people would love me, but I was getting hate mail and death threats. I just cried and cried. I don’t take money from the state and I have to put food on the table. My costs are enormous. I can’t go out and get a conventional job because my babies need me here. So the one thing I can sell is them but if I do that, people attack me. I have help and I do my best. You can’t undo what I have done. The babies are here. I just have to get on.” Suleman further explains.

See here for the full interview with the Daily Mail.