Older sister swears she's clean, pleads to be allowed to meet the 1-year-old twins

May 28, 2012 09:38 GMT  ·  By

Alison Carey, Mariah Carey's 50-year-old sister, tested positive for HIV in the '90s and has been struggling with drug addiction for the most part of her adult life. She's now getting it back on track and is clean – and would very much like if her superstar sister allowed her to meet her nephews.

Alison and Mariah were once very close, but they had a falling out in 1994 and, Alison says, they hardly spoke ever since, with the singer shutting her out of her life completely.

Even when she let the diva know that she had a liver condition that might end her life in a matter of months, Mariah refused to make contact with her.

Because she's adamant not to reconcile, Alison is sending her a message through the press.

In a new interview with The Sun, the 50-year-old says she's clean and sober, and determined to get her life back. She would also like to meet her nephews, Mariah's twins, Monroe and Moroccan.

She can't speak directly to Mariah, so she hopes her words will reach her this way.

“I want to reach out to my sister and tell her how much I miss her and how proud I am that we are family,” Alison tells the British tab.

“We may be apart now, and it has been many years since we last spoke. But to me, despite all the bad times and the arguments, she will always be my baby sister. I still remember when she was a little girl – just as beautiful as she is now,” she adds.

Taking a trip down memory lane, Alison recalls how she helped Mariah when she was at the start of her music career, even walking the streets to get money to put food on the table for her.

Now that Mariah is famous and Alison is still fighting to tear herself from her old life (she currently lives at an outpatient facility and is just 4 months sober), all she wants is a chance to meet the two kids.

“I cannot put into words how moved I was to see pictures of my niece and nephew for the first time. I saw photographs of them on the television just after they were born and I saw more when they turned one recently,” she says.

“They are absolutely adorable. And when I look into their eyes I see my sister’s eyes shining right back at me – the eyes I used to stare into when I would hold her as a baby,” Alison adds.

She knows of Nick Cannon, Mariah's husband, from the magazines too, but she's convinced the two are excellent parents – so excellent they would not shut her out of the twins' lives without at least hearing her out.

Alison's final message to Mariah is simply “Please just call me.”