Lindsay Lohan Alone, ‘in Hell’ After Samantha Ronson Split

This past weekend, DJ Samantha Ronson called it off with actress Lindsay Lohan, putting an end to an affair that has fascinated the media for such a long time. As Ronson is gearing up to go to court to ask for a restraining order against Lohan, while also making sure that she is unable to contact her in any way, Lindsay is speaking to Us Magazine and admits to being heart-broken, desperate, but still very much in love.

The romance between the two stars ended after another violent fight over the weekend. Ronson consequently banned Lindsay from attending an event hosted by her family and even called the security guards to escort her off the premises when she did show up. The next day, Ronson was changing the locks at the house she had shared with the actress over the past months. Lindsay is now in tears and feels as if the entire world turned its back on her, as per her own admission for the magazine.

“‘It’s absolute hell,’ Lohan told Us in a far-ranging interview over several lengthy phone calls and emails where she was both agitated, crying and baffled by the turn of events. ‘The worst night of my life. […] I’m not a bad person and this is what happens,’ Lohan told Us through tears. ‘I was raised to treat people well, and I’m so tired of this drama.’” the mag writes following the interview with Lindsay, thus coming to confirm speculation from earlier this week that had it that it was Ronson who broke off the relationship.

“Lohan says she’s ‘so alone’ without Ronson. ‘Everyone’s turned on me,’ says the actress. She tells the magazine that the night of the Chateau showdown, Nicole Richie walked by her and said ‘Uck,’ and Drea De Matteo said, ‘Come at me, [expletive].’ ‘I’m a [expletive] 22-year-old girl who’s in love,’ she says. ‘I felt like I was in Mean Girls, but worse: Mean Girls was a movie.’” another excerpt of the interview reads.

After the breakup, Lindsay Lohan spoke about her true feelings on Twitter, claiming that Ronson had cheated on her. However, the interview with Us Magazine is the first one in which the star opens up about the failed relationship, as well as about the many rows and violent fights that led to its early demise. For more on the drama and the heartache, pick up the latest issue of Us Magazine, out on newsstands today.