Star says she was depressed, suicidal

Apr 7, 2010 14:44 GMT  ·  By

She moved on from her failed marriage to singer Peter Andre, but Katie Price says some wounds will never heal. For instance, when Peter told her that he would leave her if she continued taking drugs, she was thrown into the pits of despair and she even considered killing herself as a way out of all the pain she was suffering. Luckily, she soon realized that that was not the answer, she says in an interview cited by the Daily Mail.

Now happily married again to cagefighter Alex Reid, Katie says the idea of the dissolution of her marriage to Peter Andre came as such a shock that, at first, she did not even know how to react. It all happened when she dabbled into drugs as a means to overcome post-natal depression. Then-husband Peter Andre found out what she was doing and told her that, if she continued, he would get a divorce. Only the thought of being separated from him made things worse – so bad that she contemplated suicide.

“My depression got so bad that I actually turned to drugs. I was desperate to get out of my head. After I took it I thought this feels good. Suddenly I started to feel really strange, my heart seemed to be racing fast. In bed, sleep was out of the question as I lay there wide awake, tormenting myself with thoughts, convinced I was going to die. Shortly afterwards, I considered killing myself after Peter threatened to leave when I told him I’d taken a drug,” Price shares for the latest issue of OK! Magazine, as cited by the Mail.

“Thinking I didn’t have Pete any more, I was distraught and desperate. What am I going to do? I’ve ruined everything. I seriously thought, shall I just end it now? Drive into this wall and kill myself. Then I thought, what is wrong with me? You can’t do this to the kids, to Pete, to your mum. You’re stronger than this. Pull yourself together. Eventually, I had to spend some time at the Priory. I went along to speak to the doctor there. I got everything off my chest,” the glamour model goes on to say.

Eventually, though, one might add with just a tinge of sarcasm, Katie Price got over the separation from Peter Andre just fine. Moreover, she actually succeeded in playing out her “divorce drama” in the tabloids, selling exclusives and using every opportunity available to badmouth her ex – which Peter Andre reciprocated to some extent.