14 DAY TRIAL // He didn’t get to spend too much time with baby Louis, for whom he and ex-wife Sandra Bullock started the adoption process before the cheating scandal, but Jesse James says he misses him dearly. In fact, he misses him so much he can hardly talk about it.
James’ autobiography, “American Outlaw,” is out in bookstores today and he’s doing his best to promote it.
Of course, given the media attention he got for cheating on America’s sweetheart Sandra with a tattoo model, questions of whether he included said chapter of his life in the book are bound to emerge.
Regardless, James is a changed man, he says in a brand new interview with People magazine.
He’s made mistakes and he’s learned from them, but he doesn’t plan on dwelling on the past for too long because he’s started a new life as a new man – and he wants to put the past behind him.
“I was at my breaking point,” he says of the cheating scandal, the divorce and the subsequent media frenzy, for which he says he takes “full accountability.”
“I’m moving forward, thinking clearly and becoming a better person… I have started life over,” he says, when People presses him more on the Bullock topic.
He does have regrets, though, like not being able to be there as a father for Louis, whom he planned to adopt with Sandra and who is now being raised by the actress alone.
“Talking about Louis almost felt too intimate. He is so sweet and I miss him,” James tells People.
He also explains the dark chapter in his life as a result of a tragic childhood, marked by abuse and the feeling that he was never good enough for anything – not even when he literally had it made.
“I always felt out of place my whole life. I never felt successful, never felt I deserved anything,” James says.