I Thought I Was Going to Die at Childbirth, Miranda Kerr Tells InStyle

New mommy and working supermodel Miranda Kerr is in the latest issue of InStyle Australia magazine, opening up about joggling career and motherhood, her life as a wife to Hollywood star Orlando Bloom and how they make it work.

Kerr also speaks out for the first time on her pregnancy and how her first son, Flynn, came into the world. It was quite a painful experience, she says, but totally worth the wait.

This explains why she wouldn’t let Orlando leave her side at all, as she said in a recent interview. He didn’t leave even to go to the bathroom and would go in a bottle, Miranda revealed.

The birth was all natural and, with Flynn weighing 10 pounds, she had her work cut out for her.

“I’ve never been through so much pain, but I was totally present the entire time, focusing on my breath and meditating,” the model reveals.

“I kept thinking, how do women do this? But if other women have done this, I can do it, too. I was determined,” Miranda adds.

That did not help much with the pain, though. There were times when it got so bad she actually felt she was on the verge of dying – or had already died.

“I actually thought I was going to die at one point and left my body. I felt as if I was looking down on myself – the pain was so intense,” Miranda explains.

“Then he came out and we met, and it was the best thing. I think once you go through something like that, nothing else fazes you – it puts everything into perspective,” Kerr adds.

As for juggling work and family life, the model is very blunt: family comes first. Only if she and her husband come to the conclusion that she could do a job and it would benefit the family, she does it.

When she’s at home, they don’t even have a nanny, she says, because she and Orlando want to be hands-on parents to Flynn and not have someone else raise their baby.

“It’s whoever has their hands free,” Miranda says of how she and Orlando have their responsibilities divided.