Bullying Drove Jodie Marsh to Contemplate Suicide 'Loads of Times'

She may appear to be incredibly tough, but Jodie Marsh is still very sore about her past. In a recent interview, the former glamor girl turned bodybuilder opens up about bullying and how it drove her to contemplate suicide.

Marsh sat down for an interview with ITV's This Morning to promote her upcoming Channel 5 documentary “Bullied: My Secret Past,” where she made the revelation about how it nearly drove her to suicide, The Sun reports.

Though painfully trying to maintain her composure, Marsh was completely overwhelmed when asked to talk about bullying in her past.

She says it was the one reason she decided to be a glamor girl: she wanted to show all those kids telling her she was ugly that she was good enough to grace the pages of men's magazines.

“They started picking on my nose, I got called ugly and big nose and dodgy nose and all sorts of things right the way through secondary school,” she says.

Jodie broke her nose when she was just 8 – this is when the bullying started, and it got progressively worse.

“They would kick footballs at my head, I was terrified. By the end of my secondary school I didn't have a single friend there. I didn't eat any lunch, I used to go and hide in the library at lunchtimes. I was a complete loner at school,” she says.

The bullying eventually made her life so difficult that she began thinking she would be better off is she “just ended it,” she says, adding that she contemplated suicide “loads of times.”

“I only do what I do now because of being bullied, I decided to become a model to prove to my bullies that I wasn't ugly. It changed my whole life, it really did. I wanted to be a vet and I would have gone off to uni and done that, that was my plan in life,” Jodie adds.

“And then I remember I was 15 years old when I wrote in my diary, I said 'I'm going to be famous, I'm going to be a model because I am going to prove to these people that I'm not as ugly as they say I am',” she goes on to say, adding that glamor modeling was her only option because she wasn't tall enough to be a runway girl.