Britney Is a Lost Cause: Drunk, Depressed and with No Self Esteem

This is going to be a sad day for Britney Spears' die hard fans. All that we have been reading in the tabloids about the former teen idol, all those speculations with no foundations, all those rumors and allegations were confirmed by none other that her former assistant and friend, Felicia Cullota, who spent almost nine and a half years by Britney's side. Today, she is no longer working with her and is pursuing a career as a flight attendant and teacher.

Felicia said she couldn't take it anymore, that she couldn't just stand on the side and witness Britney's route to self-destruction. No words could reach her, no argument was strong enough to make her see where she was going, Cullota said in a post on a blog written by someone who was formerly the administrator of the biggest Britney fansite.

The post came as a response to an editorial called 'Why Britney Is Asking For It...', in which the editor expressed his amazement at how alone Brit was, at how neither her mother nor her best friend were nowhere to be seen anymore. After reading this, Felicia decided to speak her mind and her words do strike one as sincere and heart-felt. First off, she says that her post comes directly from her, without being 'edited' or approved by Britney's publicist for the simple reason that, right now, she has none.

Although she doesn't quite say out loud that Britney is a drunk (as if the photos of her with blood-shot eyes and make-up smeared all over her face were not enough of a confirmation), Felicia talks about Britney's low self-esteem and about how no one could convince her to 'seek help'. She seems convinced that the singer will eventually end up by 'hitting rock bottom' and somehow wishes for it to happen so that she may be able to pick herself up and start afresh.

Despite the way things look, there is still hope. At least, she still has hope that Britney Spears will one day learn to appreciate who she is and what life has offered her and stop acting so irresponsibly. The fans, on the other hand, are not so sure... Anyway, below is the full post. This is no longer funny and, if Felicia is indeed as honest as she claims to be (and not like Britney's former boytoy Isaac Cohen who went and sold his story to the highest bidding tabloid), the truth is more disturbing than we thought it was.

'Ruben,

Once again–I commend you for your Honesty and Integrity. I have been reading your new website daily and am grateful to have that to go to, to check on the antics of Britney. Britney doesn’t have a Publicist for me to clear this thru first, so it will come directly from my heart to you!

I am writing in response to "Where is Felicia?" on your editorial. I am home–in Mississippi…….I am now a trained Corporate Flight Attendant and fly with a tiny jet company out of Georgia. I am also a substitute Preschool Teacher at the Church Preschool in my town. I LOVED being with Britney for the past 9 1/2 years. I enjoyed being a part of HER dream, but now, am living my own dream.

I cherish ALL the incredible opportunities that came my way thru my job with Britney and am crushed/saddened/heart sick by the way her life is unfolding…….

I want you to know Ruben that WE (as in her Family and nearest and dearest—ALL of whom are NOT on the payroll anymore!!) are doing EVERYTHING in our power to get help for Britney and all in our power to NOT pad the bottom or move the bottom, so when she does indeed hit rock bottom, she’ll stand up and walk away from this whole fiasco a new, confident, changed, career driven Britney like we all knew and loved.

There’s just so much you can do to help a person—I don’t dare want to be an enabler, and I cannot love her enough for the both of us. I cannot convince her in ANY way to love herself. All I can do is be a friend, someone that loved her for MANY years unconditionally, and PRAY. That, I have decided is the most and best I can do for my friend. I cannot save her from herself, nor can I commit her to any type of treatment program against her wishes and will. I am throwing my hands up and realizing that I am helpless over another—ANYONE!

It’s been a hard reality for me to face. I have lived my best example daily, and that is ALL I’m capable of. To see what’s transpiring now, makes me feel a failure, defeated. I LOVED and BELIEVED in what I was a part of for the past 10 years and was so incredibly proud of Britney and all she’d become.

All that to say this Ruben–I’m so Southern, and the BEST way for me to tell you how I feel is to say—You can just kick an old Dog so many times before he gets off the porch. I, FELICIA, am OFF the porch!!

Thank you for ALL you’ve done–ALL the love and support over the years. ALL the non-judgment and ALL the Honesty!

PLEASE let me know if there’s ANYTHING I can do to repay your kindness. With as much sincerity as I can Muster,

—FE'

Photos: Britney Spears stripping in a New York club over the weekend.

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