On February 16, Beyonce fans are in for a real treat, as that is the air date of her HBO documentary, which will offer a rare insight into her world, including her music, business endeavors and, last but not least, personal life. She will also be opening up about a miscarriage.Beyonce and husband Jay-Z are now the proud parents of Blue Ivy but they could have had 2 children now, had it not been for a tragic miscarriage a few years back.
Us Weekly got a preview of the documentary and vouches that Beyonce opens up on the very sad topic, admitting that it was one of the most difficult and heartbreaking moments in her life.
“About two years ago, I was pregnant for the first time. And I heard the heartbeat, which was the most beautiful music I ever heard in my life,” Beyonce reveals in one scene in the film.
She and Jay started preparing for the arrival of the baby, overjoyed at the thought that one of their biggest dreams was finally becoming true.
“I picked out names. I envisioned what my child would look like... I was feeling very maternal,” she recalls.
One day, Beyonce flew to New York to get her regular checkup but the doctor could not hear the heartbeat anymore. In an instant, all her and her husband’s dreams were shattered.
The star dealt with the pain the only way she knows how: through music.
“I went into the studio and wrote the saddest song I’ve ever written in my life. And it was actually the first song I wrote for my album. And it was the best form of therapy for me, because it was the saddest thing I’ve ever been through,” she says.
She doesn’t reveal the name of the song, though.
Also in the documentary, Us Weekly reports, Beyonce talks about being pregnant with Blue Ivy, and compares the experience to “falling in love”: extreme happiness and joy, the kind you want to shout about from the rooftop.